don't merajuk arhhhhhhhhh...... plssssss.

i just want you to know.

-i wonder if you're okay every single day.
-i take my phone wherever i go, just incase you call.
-i even stop a movie, or stop watching my favourite series, just to talk to you.
-whenever you're not okay, i can't sleep.
-i even set my phone on ringing, when i sleep, just incase you call.
-i skip my daily naps, to talk to you when you're not okay.
-i hold my phone, when i go out, just incase i cannot feel the vibration whenever you call me.
-i wait for your call, whenever you say you'll call me. but when's the last time you called me for no reason at all? you usually only call me whenever u got back home from something.
-i am down, whenever you're feeling down.
-i find every opportunity to call you to let me know where i am and wat am i doing. even if i have to (lie to my parents, sneak into somewher unfamiliar)
-i'd give anything and everything to see you smile.


i think of you every single day, every single minute, every single second.

will you do the same for me?

whenever one's not okay.

whenever he's not okay.

her: are u okay?
guy : answers unwillingly, yeah.
her : okayy. u take care k?
guy : okay bye.
her : bye.

after 1-2 mins...
he calls her back.

guy : hey i'm not okay.
her : okay. wat's wrong?
guy : erm, i don't really know.
her : okayy.
guy : okay la, don't wanna disturb you. bye
her : okay take care, bye.

after a few mins..
he calls her back again.

guy : hey, wat are u doing?
her : chatinggg.
guy : why didn't you call me to see if i was okay?
her : oh. do u wan me to call you now?
guy : erm, wat's the point? i already called you.
her : okayy.
guy : sigh. can u call me?
her : okayy.

after a min..
she calls him..

her : heyy. you okay?
guy : haih. not really. do u really care for me?
her : yeahh.
guy : then why didn't you call to check if i was okay?
her : i didn't know u wanted me to call you.

when she's not okay

guy calls her, multiple times. to check to see if she's okay.

i'm not saying you don't care for me. i know you do. but sometimes you really don't show it. it's not about calling. it's about showing that you care.

it's not i don't trust you.

Scenario 1
guy : i love you forever.
her : okayy.
guy : trust me that i'll love you forever?
her : yeah. but in the future who knows?

Scenario2
guy : if we do get seperated one day, as in, study in different countries, will you continue to love me?
her : i don't know.

Scenario3
guy : then one day, if we study in different coutries, will u fall for another guy? cause i can only comfort you through the phone, but not in person.
her : i don't know.
guy : why don't u know?
her : cause we don't know wat will happen in the future.
guy : but by saying you don't know, you're already giving yourself a chance of happening.
her : i don't know. but how can we know? we don't know the future.
guy : the future is wat we make of it.
her : who knows wat will happen in the future.

it's not i don't trust you. it's just your response to wat i ask hurts me sometimes. i hope u can see it one day.
i don't wanna argue with you, i just want you to know how i feel.

i'm afraid of losing you.